Saturday, June 30, 2007
A heartfelt thank-you to those who offered their condolences.
To trina & ryl : tnks girls for the carrot-cake & tnks for attending the wake.
To john & rx : tnks for coming dwn today. Had a nice conversation with you guys.
I'm not important to you, even as a friend.
It amounts to nothing in the end.
I'm going to do anything to lessen the pain.
I broke the glass bottles u gave, because whatever is written by you is broken.
I want to scream!
I want to get away from all this shit.
I hope things will get better before my 18th bday. Someone asked what i want for my big day..
Well.. I just want to be happy.
Life's a bitch. Alright.. I know i'm in a better state compared to many people out there. I'm considered forunate to a certain extent.. but sometimes i cant help but swear & curse. Heh.. pardon me.
To trina & ryl : tnks girls for the carrot-cake & tnks for attending the wake.
To john & rx : tnks for coming dwn today. Had a nice conversation with you guys.
I'm not important to you, even as a friend.
It amounts to nothing in the end.
I'm going to do anything to lessen the pain.
I broke the glass bottles u gave, because whatever is written by you is broken.
I want to scream!
I want to get away from all this shit.
I hope things will get better before my 18th bday. Someone asked what i want for my big day..
Well.. I just want to be happy.
Life's a bitch. Alright.. I know i'm in a better state compared to many people out there. I'm considered forunate to a certain extent.. but sometimes i cant help but swear & curse. Heh.. pardon me.
Labels: If only...
what we could have been, 5:57 AM.
Friday, June 29, 2007
Just another depressing week.. my grandpa passed away yesterday. He passed away not because of old age, but cancer. It's really traumatise me to know that cancerous tumour took the lives of my grandpas & grandmas. Life is unpredictable, anything can happen the next min. We didnt expect him to be gone, so soon.. it's too abrupt.. but i'm glad to know that he wasnt in pain, when he went to heaven.
My dearest grandpa - r.i.p.
To ryl : I hope that one day we'll be able to see the rainbow. (: sunshine aft the rain.
Sometimes, when you laugh.
It doesnt mean that you're over the moon.
Sometimes, you dont cry.
It doesnt mean that you're strong.
Sometimes, you dont grumble.
It doesnt mean that you're contented.
Sometimes, you feel like dying.
It doesnt mean that you can.
To trina : Rmb banana, i cant take another blow for the time being.
The short conversation ryl & i had with mr sharil affected us.. but somehow it affected ryl even more. Whatever it is, we've to accept that what we've heard.. might be the fact. A reality we've to face it, like it or not. One week down, 7 weeks to go ---- then.. long vacation here i come! (:
Cant wait to meet up with the girls next week! (:
My dearest grandpa - r.i.p.
To ryl : I hope that one day we'll be able to see the rainbow. (: sunshine aft the rain.
Sometimes, when you laugh.
It doesnt mean that you're over the moon.
Sometimes, you dont cry.
It doesnt mean that you're strong.
Sometimes, you dont grumble.
It doesnt mean that you're contented.
Sometimes, you feel like dying.
It doesnt mean that you can.
To trina : Rmb banana, i cant take another blow for the time being.
The short conversation ryl & i had with mr sharil affected us.. but somehow it affected ryl even more. Whatever it is, we've to accept that what we've heard.. might be the fact. A reality we've to face it, like it or not. One week down, 7 weeks to go ---- then.. long vacation here i come! (:
Cant wait to meet up with the girls next week! (:
what we could have been, 2:19 AM.
Saturday, June 23, 2007
A day out with ryl, seth & cz. Catched nancy drew, it was a awesome film. Had dinner at pastamania & sat at op and have our usual chats.
I want to get a guitar.
((:
It's funny when two out of love person try to console e/o.. becus it's gettin' no where.
I want to get a guitar.
((:
It's funny when two out of love person try to console e/o.. becus it's gettin' no where.
what we could have been, 9:54 AM.
Friday, June 22, 2007
frog, i miss you.
what we could have been, 5:58 AM.
Thursday, June 21, 2007
It's has been days since i last blogged. I've been going out practically everyday. with different combination daily, monday - cheryl, trina & cz. tuesday - shi ying. wednesday - junwei & tricia. thursday - cynthia, cheryl & athena. tmr - jessica. Thanks peeps who accompanied me through the week.
Sch's starting next week. damn it.. but perhaps it isnt tt bad? Haha.. since my thoughts will run wild when i'm hm alone.
I think i desperately need to get a new hp ear pierce, there's sth wrong with the connection.
I dont wana describe how i'm feeling right now. Lets hope, one day.. just one day.. everything will be fine.
((:
Sch's starting next week. damn it.. but perhaps it isnt tt bad? Haha.. since my thoughts will run wild when i'm hm alone.
I think i desperately need to get a new hp ear pierce, there's sth wrong with the connection.
I dont wana describe how i'm feeling right now. Lets hope, one day.. just one day.. everything will be fine.
((:
what we could have been, 2:05 AM.
Sunday, June 17, 2007
I learnt alot from this failed r/s, be it gd or bad. (:
I really appreciate my gfs, friends, loved ones who gave me advises, drink with me & consoled me.
I dont deny that whenever i think of you, i would question what caused us to be like tt. However, i realised u're right, good things come to an end. I cant rely on you forever. You told me, i've to look at things at a different angle.. then i'll understand everything happens for a reason.
I'm trying my best to pick myself up & live for myself. ((:
I love you guys! (:
I really appreciate my gfs, friends, loved ones who gave me advises, drink with me & consoled me.
I dont deny that whenever i think of you, i would question what caused us to be like tt. However, i realised u're right, good things come to an end. I cant rely on you forever. You told me, i've to look at things at a different angle.. then i'll understand everything happens for a reason.
I'm trying my best to pick myself up & live for myself. ((:
I love you guys! (:
what we could have been, 9:15 PM.
Saturday, June 16, 2007
A part of me died when you left.
Yesterday, in the middle of the night i woke up crying. I felt as if i had a nightmare, but i wasnt.. it's the reality.
Yesterday, in the middle of the night i woke up crying. I felt as if i had a nightmare, but i wasnt.. it's the reality.
what we could have been, 7:30 PM.
I just want to be happy.
We're still friends no matter what. (:
We're still friends no matter what. (:
what we could have been, 4:18 AM.
Friday, June 15, 2007
I wish that you're here with me this very moment, but it wont happen. I tried to convince myself that u once loved me, but i failed. I want to keep those sweet memories we had tgt, but i wont.
I want to move on with my life w/o you, & i will. I wont dwell on the past, becus you wont.
You treated it as if nth happened.. Oh well.. perhaps i mean nth to you. It really hurts to know tt, but it's the fact & i've to accept it.
You walked off, without looking back. I dont know what caused you to be so ignorant.
I didnt know our love was that fragile. I didnt know u can just moved on within 1day. ha.
I want to thank peeps at the yesterday's bbq, gfs, bfs who consoled me.. Thanks for being there, i'll try to be strong. && gfs whom i talked to on the phone. You're guys are really great! >.<
I want to move on with my life w/o you, & i will. I wont dwell on the past, becus you wont.
You treated it as if nth happened.. Oh well.. perhaps i mean nth to you. It really hurts to know tt, but it's the fact & i've to accept it.
You walked off, without looking back. I dont know what caused you to be so ignorant.
I didnt know our love was that fragile. I didnt know u can just moved on within 1day. ha.
I want to thank peeps at the yesterday's bbq, gfs, bfs who consoled me.. Thanks for being there, i'll try to be strong. && gfs whom i talked to on the phone. You're guys are really great! >.<
Labels: Out of love. If there's any.
what we could have been, 6:19 PM.
Thursday, June 14, 2007
It's over between us.
your name brings tears in my eyes.
imu, this i confess.
god, pls take the pain away.
your name brings tears in my eyes.
imu, this i confess.
god, pls take the pain away.
what we could have been, 2:18 AM.
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
I dont know.
Maybe it's too late for regrets.
Love?
Maybe it doesnt matters anymore.
Maybe it's too late for regrets.
Love?
Maybe it doesnt matters anymore.
Labels: Love?
what we could have been, 7:03 PM.
Saturday, June 9, 2007
I didnt realise that u're the one.
I didnt realise what u did, what u said was from your heart.
I didnt realise that i wasnt understanding at all.
I didnt realise that the problem lies with me.
I'm sorry for being unreasonable, paranoid, demanding. I didnt see that you gave in to whatever nonsense i've said. Now i see it, and i'm glad it's not too late to salvage everything.
I didnt realise what u did, what u said was from your heart.
I didnt realise that i wasnt understanding at all.
I didnt realise that the problem lies with me.
I'm sorry for being unreasonable, paranoid, demanding. I didnt see that you gave in to whatever nonsense i've said. Now i see it, and i'm glad it's not too late to salvage everything.
what we could have been, 7:52 PM.
Friday, June 8, 2007
Sometimes, i really have no idea what i want. No idea what you want. Perhaps we're really two poles apart.. is it a wrong decision from the start?
There's so many things i want to say to you, but whr should i start?
There's so many things i want to say to you, but whr should i start?
what we could have been, 3:41 AM.
Wednesday, June 6, 2007
Just finish watching 'The new detectives' on discovery ch.. 1 husband tried to poison his wife with poison rat, while the other killed her wife & depicted that it was suicide. I was wondering.. how can they be so heartless/ cold-blooded.. it really creeps me out. But, justice is done.. both men were sentenced to life time prisonment. Well.. serve them right. (:
Gg back to tpss to collect 'o' cert with yeerui, soofang & yueqin. I miss 5ns..
Gg back to tpss to collect 'o' cert with yeerui, soofang & yueqin. I miss 5ns..
what we could have been, 7:30 PM.
Had a gathering with soofang, sherlyn, trina, junwei, jierui, sam & jingling. We went to seoul garden for lunch and ate for hours. & i mean hours.. we sat there & kept eating..
Talking abt the food, i really loathe the squid there.. They didnt clear the "soft bone" & it's 'ink' & it's damn digusting..
Man.. you can see the black 'ink' oozing out of the squid. It really makes me lose my appetite.
But it was great hanging out with them.. They simply rock! (:
I was talking to sherlyn and i realised tt what she said is true.. One must learn how to take and let go when it comes to r/s. Well.. i know it isnt that simple.. whatever happens life has to go on. Ok no.. i'm not out of love. :D
I'm pleased to say that i'm offically 'free' from sch for these 2 weeks! Hahaa.. life cant get any better than this ~ Hooray!
Talking abt the food, i really loathe the squid there.. They didnt clear the "soft bone" & it's 'ink' & it's damn digusting..
Man.. you can see the black 'ink' oozing out of the squid. It really makes me lose my appetite.
But it was great hanging out with them.. They simply rock! (:
I was talking to sherlyn and i realised tt what she said is true.. One must learn how to take and let go when it comes to r/s. Well.. i know it isnt that simple.. whatever happens life has to go on. Ok no.. i'm not out of love. :D
I'm pleased to say that i'm offically 'free' from sch for these 2 weeks! Hahaa.. life cant get any better than this ~ Hooray!
what we could have been, 6:56 AM.
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